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It's not easy to survive 10 over heartbreaks and still be standing and smiling. Either you are really, really resilient, which I am, or that you open your heart freely and don't really bother about being hurt, which I do all the time, or that you really have no luck with cupid, which I also do (have no luck).

So, the issue is with whether why would one wish to be hurt over and over again. Why wouldn't it be better to just close yourself up to prevent yourself from getting hurt over and over again?

The imagery is really funny; she, riding some horse, carrying a really long spear, charging..... at me, hits bullseye, then drops the spear

flustered, fickle-minded, cowardly-even, perhaps realising the ideal in her mind is not reality


and then tries to pull out the spear and run away.



It will hurt lah common sense. And it's damn deep lah. Not only that my blood vessels like wrap around the spear head already. Wah lao.



I kinda learnt that if you want to really appreciate someone for who she is, you've got to stop fantasizing about her, cos in doing so you idealise and deify the person. Then, when the time comes when you actually get to talk to this person, u either get disappointed, or feel that it's not possible between you and the other person, then you'd like, feel cold?


We are all just falling in love with ourselves if we just continue not-engaging the person in reality. We're forming a clone of that person in our minds, and infusing our deepest preconceived notions and fantasy and ideas into this empty clone. So in a sense, you are falling in love with yourself.


If I could do it, I mean, appreciate you for who you are, engage you with no preconceived notions, why can't you?


That's assuming you ever know where my blog is lah.







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