I love Judyguitar

Just came back from a jam today. Was really looking forward to it, until I saw the signs that maybe it's going to be otherwise. You can really feel it somehow, when you hit the first note and it's kinda quite cold. 

The drummer just got his chops and feel back, so naturally he played better. And of course becomes legitimate to make opinions and criticisms. 

Now, if the jam with Kevin was the first light of the truth, this jam is the patterning of light particles into a coherent track with direction. Translation? This time round we began to be able to identify where're the sucky parts.

This guy's good by local music scene standards. But we are not anywhere near local music scene standards. I'm the kind of guy that wants things to be adequate and decent-at-least before going ahead and doing something out of it. So we have some time to kickback to ourselves.

See, you konw what's my worry? I have a reason to be uptight. I have a creeping apprehension that somehow, this band's lineup has a tendency to not be a long stayer. Jason's departure, to be honest, was really a big blow to us. And to me too. We lost someone whom we could grow with. Someone, after playing together for 2 years, whose feel and patterns and quirks we can catch, such that, "Tom, Tom, Snare, Snare" and we all instantly know what antics this guy is going to pull off.

For our latest drummer-audtionaire, I intend to ask him to see his role as a mentor instead as a confirmed drummer, until Iliyas comes back. That way the three of us can become better within this year and bring ourselves onto another level of understanding of band dynamics and music. Then when he has to leave we'll be better off to bargain for decent drummers. I'm thinking of Corny at the moment, cos he's got potential. Hopefully by the end of our internship he'd have learnt to listen to others? Cos he haven't played with a band yet to understand band dynamics. And I don't konw how to "train" him to listen to your bandmates. This kind of thing  have to go through the mill one. Like the three of us.

When I see Junhong play 12 fret I know he's going to do a syncopated Eminor triad. When Phaedre plays in E I can roughly guess the next two notes she's going to play will somehow involve an A, C or D. 

I've been quite shagged over loads of stuff. I wonder if I have time for personal growth? I dunno how Jh finds time to play guitar, cos I can't. I'm really lagging behind.

I need more time, and less pace.