There's a risk that I might be going through burnout, thanks to the intense long nights for the last JS essay. For 30%, and with so many restrictions, as well as the promise of a strict marker, I wonder if my brainfuck was even helpful.
It doesn't help that Durkheim is another brainfuck too. That guy starts with a long line showing his argument, then in the next line he will include a disclaimer line, like "That is not to say that we are assuming that..." It seems like half the time he's trying to frikkin' cover his ass first, Before making his point. Like frikkin' lay down your argument first lah.
That said, he's dead, long long ago. I can't help but think how he would see the world today. His theories are just so phenomenal, I think he'll get a heart attack from seeing our world today. At least Marx will say something like, "100 years and still not in Utopia yet??" and Weber probably "Nothing has changed since I left... everything is the same!"
Shrugs.
I guess I want to apologize to Chang for being emo the other day. But it seems to me that people with the same emotional configuration will say things like, "... but I wouldn't give this song a second listen". Emotional states meaning their ways of carrying themselves, reacting to the world, their psychological makeup, as much as the term itself means! Cos there was someone who said the same thing before... and he is those quite stable, strong inwardly, confident and "planner" kind. Meaning a very zai personality, difficult to sway emotionally.
These people, I realise, tend to require less "support" from music in terms of stabilizing emotions. Some people identify their emotions with certain songs and music genres to kinda affirm their own personality and all. Like how angsty kids might identify with emo or death core music. Or how u feel that a band captures your spiritual state and all that. These confident and internally strong people seem to be able to renew themselves from within, or from some other source, like maybe their friends, church, lovers, their place in society, etc.
I think there are different things people get out of music, jus that what they get out of music reflects their personality too. That's all.
I jsut changed back to 011s. the feeling and sound of Curt Mangan's is really different now comparing with my previous set. It's more... raw and steel-like, quite mechanical. I really really love Dunlop strings actually. But what to do, can't find Dunlop 011s. IMO they sound best.
And Curt Mangan is not totally breakage free lah. I just broke the second string 2 days after installing it. I think i gotta have to really find a pick that'll allow me to whack as I do and still save my strings.
Tch.
Today's really not a study day.
For some reason, I really want to break out.
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